Let's not bring Her into this, but yes, Someone, he worried that if Alec slept, he might actually not ever wake up, and though Aziraphale was more than aware that humans came with expiration dates and that Alec had been pushing the limits on his for a long while, he wasn't quite ready to think about how easy it might be for someone so dear to him to disappear on him so casually.

So he swallowed back that emotion and nodded. "He remembers me as I was before." If there was anyone he could tell this to, it would be Alec. "When I said some hurtful things to him. I think he has forgiven me--but I worry I may never be able to properly heal that wound for him."