I remember the events at Castrum Fluminis, and then darkness. I am fairly sure I was dead, though there is a chance I was not, because I am fairly certain I deserved to go to hell. And there was no hell I knew of, there.

[At least to judge by her tone of voice, she's convinced of that. But there isn't a great deal of sorrow at the thought. She knew she had done things that folk considered horrible. And only because of some desire to get back at them...]

I do hope I was on the cusp, though, as you say. There are people I know are dead, whom I would honestly not like to see here. They do not deserve a second chance, any of them! If there is a hell, I hope they are there!