Why? Why is he being so kind? The guilt in her heart flares up, and she wants to be different. She wants to be that girl she saw when her memories of being a zombie returned to her, but it's impossible now that she's regained the memories of when she was alive. It's impossible because it's already happened again, even though she had made such good friends...

"I can't really be angry," she replies, "when I have no one but myself to blame. It was an accident that brought us here? What sort of misfortune would be required for one of such magnitude? I'm here, so I know the answer for that."

This whole time, she's been tough about the situation and tough on herself, but everyone she encounters is so kind and positive... It really makes it harder. She wants to cry, but she can't push past her own numbness to even display the depths of her sorrow.